I always had a bad stigma against yoga. When I was young, I only saw girls do yoga. I always thought yoga is about acrobatics. It is a feminine art of twisting and contorting your body to weirdly looking postures and poses. My initial thoughts about yoga was that it was not an exercise. You cannot call it an exercise because it was just about bending your body this way and that way.

Throughout the years, I looked at what yoga is. I always saw women do yoga, so I assumed that it was an activity for women, not for guys. Heck, there are pants named after yoga, and they are something that women wear.

So without a clue, I assumed that yoga is just a feminine activity. Only women do yoga because it is about stretching your body and becoming flexible. I assumed that that was the main point of yoga. I was wrong.

Yoga is not about becoming an expert contortionist. Yes, yoga postures and poses can stretch your body and make you flexible, but there is so much more.

Yoga started in ancient India, and it was used as a method, mean, or a technology through which one can transform himself. The physical aspects of yoga, the various postures and poses, were adopted by westerners. However, the deeper dimensions of yoga never caught on.

And as such, I developed a jaded view of yoga. I abhorred it initially, thinking and believing that it will not serve any purpose in my life. I came to a biased conclusion. Thankfully, I opened my mind and experienced new things. Now I practice yoga on a daily basis. Continue reading

Open to Adventure

“You know, traveling with people isn’t all that great,” a Caucasian male hiker in his 30’s said to his Asian female companion of about the same age. I was located about a few feet behind them sitting and meditating on top of a big rock.

“You have to be open to adventure…Some people take their world with them wherever they go.” The man continued with his story. “If you go to new places, you embrace what is there. You try new things, else what is the point of traveling?”

We were all at the top of the Mission Peak Trail Head. After two hours of hiking, I was enjoying the view before me, but I overheard the conversation that the couples were having. Eagerly and attentively, I listened in on their conversation.

“When most people travel, they are nothing more than tourists. They take pictures and see new things, but they don’t really experience anything new. They don’t give themselves to the situation totally.” The man complained. “I don’t know why people bother with traveling if they are not open to new experiences…”

I listened to him in the background and couldn’t help agreeing with what he said. I mean what is the point of going to new places without experiencing the culture, and the very way of life that a new surrounding brings? Continue reading

Love Infatuation and Ramblings

I cry a lot. Is it weird that I find it therapeutic to cry? If emotions get too intense because of high expectations, I cry.

When I cry, most of the time it is over a woman. I am very lame, but I understand how the mechanics of the situation work.

Whatever you perceive as lacking in your life, it takes on an enormous scale of importance. Whatever you pay attention to the most, it takes on a life of its own.

In every way what I am doing is compulsive. I keep projecting my expectations and needs on someone else. I keep making these fake love scenarios that overpower my mind and emotions.

I mean I am in that love infatuation state again. When I am in this state, I don’t see things clearly. I can’t even maintain the feeling of ease within me. There’s just so much desire. So much want.

I never confessed my feelings to anyone before. Because I spend over a decade of time obsessing over someone who I don’t know, I created so much nonsense within me. The same nonsense I created gained so much momentum throughout the years. Continue reading


“Good morning, ladies and gentlemen. The cross-country team is currently looking for new members to join the team. If some of you are interested, please join the team after school on the track and field!” The morning announcement team, consisting of high school students, declared as they continued with their morning ritual.

I sat slumping forward on my rectangular desk, and for some spontaneous and superfluous reasons, a random thought popped up in my mind.

“Hmmm… I am not good at any sports requiring hand eye coordination like basketball, tennis, soccer, or any sports requiring a ball. Why don’t I give cross-country a try?” I muttered quietly under my lips.

“I mean there are many sports that one can play but running requires no balls or equipment of any kind. Not only that, but it is a sport that I can do anytime. I don’t need a gym or anything…”

“I mean I really do need some extracurricular activities like sports on my transcript if I want to have a good chance of entering a nice university…”

“Or how about meeting new people? I can make new friends who would share similar, healthy lifestyle…” Continue reading

Death and Illusions

I know I talked about death many times before. Perhaps, I am rehashing many things that I wrote about. But whatever the case is, it is something that is always on my mind. You can say that having death on your mind constantly is a very bad idea. It would always make you anxious and scared.

This is not true. In fact, being aware of death constantly brings clarity to my life. It is only death that has added any value to my life. It is only death that has added any value to your life. Because I know that I will die one day, I am consciously aware of the finite amount of time that I have. Because of this, I don’t dwell in so much nonsense. I try my best to always, always be joyful and happy regardless of what is happening around me.

I guess the topic of death appeared again because I read a fantastic excerpt from The Sheltering Sky by Paul Bowles. Here’s the excerpt:

“Death is always on the way, but the fact that you don’t know when it will arrive seems to take away from the finiteness of life. It’s that terrible precision that we hate so much. But because we don’t know, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that’s so deeply a part of your being that you can’t even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty. And yet it all seems limitless.”

When I read the excerpt, it really resonated with me. I find life so miraculous. I don’t even know how I exist. Yet, everything is fine. There are so many forces in play that sustain my existence here on earth without me being aware of them. Continue reading

Dreams and Goals

“What are your dreams and goals?” Many people would ask me this question on a frequent basis. Apparently, it is a great way to gauge a person’s future capabilities based upon his dreams and goals. Generally, it tells others what a person is about and sometimes it is an interesting conversation starter.

I know this may sound stupid, but I never liked this question because I don’t know what my dreams and goals are. To others it may be obvious what their dreams and goals should be, but I don’t have any specific dreams or goals.

I don’t have any vision of what my life should be. I have no foresight of what kind of girl I will marry nor how many kids I will have. There are no goals about the kind of house I will live in or the different types of sports cars that I will buy. There is no dream career, nor how much money I want to make in life.

You may be thinking, “Luigi what are you doing? With no dreams and goals, how do you traverse through life? You will have no direction of where to go and what to do.” Continue reading


I remember reading a lot of self-help books throughout the years. One of the most common self-help methods is known as affirmations. Affirmations are basically statements that you repeat out loud or in your thoughts on a regular basis. You repeat them to reinforce and bring about certain desires into your life. For example, repeating the phrase, “I am happy”, daily can subconsciously plant the idea in your mind that you are happy.

Supposedly whatever you practice, you become good at it… This makes sense because affirmations are just like that. They are repetitive statements you make, so that you create exactly what it is that you want within yourself. Or at the very least, it will trigger a response from within you to pursue after what it is that you want.

Affirmations are powerful tools that can help one develop a strong, and clear mind. It can also do the opposite. For example, if I say that “I am happy” or “I am successful” all the time, but my reality differs, then I could spiral down the path of depression. The more reality differs from my expectations and desires, the more suffering I can bring up. Continue reading

Somecar Named Desire

For the longest period of time I have always wanted to be a monk. It’s just that in my experience of life, I feel that many things that we do are superficial. When the survival process is taken care of by just going to the supermarket, there is an abundance of time and energy for people to do anything they want.

But what do people do? They spend most of their lives making a living. I don’t understand this because every creature on the planet is making a living. We are the smartest creature on the planet and we have made it so simple to live. Yet, people make survival the biggest priority in their lives, even though we no longer have to struggle for it.

It just seems that the survival process evolved into another form. It turned into self-preservation in the form of accumulation. This can be wealth, material things, relationships, knowledge, and various other things. Because it is human nature to expand boundlessly, we find limited expression of this in physical form. We do this by making things ours. We want this. This is mine. It is a part of me. This is all that we are doing. Continue reading

Practice Makes Perfect

One of the best things in life that I realized is that we tend to get good at anything we do repeatedly. We’ve all heard the expression, “practice makes perfect”. But how many of us are aware that anything we do repeatedly is practice?

If you wake up at 7 am in the morning every day, you are practicing waking up early. If you run daily, then you are practicing and using your body. Naturally you become good at running, so you become faster and your endurance improve. Life is just like this. Anything you do can be a form of practice, of conditioning yourself to be a certain way.

I find it amusing when people say that they get distracted easily or procrastinate a lot. It’s just that in my experience of life, anything we do repeatedly, we become good at it. If you place yourself in a situation where most of the time you are distracted, you are, in a sense, practicing distraction. Continue reading


Nostalgia is a very funny feeling to me. The main reason is that when I am nostalgic about the past, I always remember the glory days. It’s just that in my experience of time, the past is always wonderful. The future is always inviting. And the present moment is not the one that I want to be in right now.

The past and the future are wonderful moments to me because I am not in it. If I think about my childhood, it is wonderful. If I think about my college days, and similar events, they are all wonderful. If I think about what the future holds, I get excited. But when I think about the current moment, I just wish it would be different from what it is.

If you are in a situation that you don’t want to be in, then avoidance is a common approach that people take. I do the same thing. Are all my past days wonderful? Of course not. I hardly remember most of them. I just believe and think that those days were amazing because I am no longer in those situations. Continue reading